Finding a Happy Medium

So...one thing that I was looking forward to about my job prospect was the fact that the hours were 8-4 WITH an hour lunch break...that's 35 hours a week, salary.... (When I say this outloud I want to kick myself for turning down the offer...I digress...) The great thing about this would have been that I could have spent my lunch hour with friends, family, or even running errands if necessary and still have extra time in the afternoon after work to go to the gym and be able to pick Garrett up from daycare all before 5:30...ahhh...grrr...
ANYWAY..the point of this blog is, (I turned that job down right?, I need to leave it alone) the point of this blog IS....I am currently spending my lunch hour at the gym and eating snacks and small "meals" throughout the day while working...which works, no big deal...but I'm starting to think about the winter and yummy comfort foods and spending lunches with friends and doing some me things, but in this scenario I don't have that extra hour of free time in the afternoon to get my gym time in. So...where do I find the happy medium? I love the gym, I want to work out, because I'm happiest when I feel good about myself, but I also want the happiness of being able to relax and not put so much emphasis on working out and enjoy some other ME time to shop, grab a latte, have lunch with friends and NOT feel guilty about skipping the gym.

There's a first time for everything

Well, today for the first time ever...I turned down a job offer. The offer came in this morning and actually at a higher salary than expected, but not quite as I high as needed :( Unfortunately all of our high hopes about Gabes opportunity in Asheville turned into just vanishing dreams. This is the only reason I actually turned down the offer, as a matter of fact I would have settled for the salary they offered, but I decided I would rather be in New Bern with my little family than in Asheville making a couple hundred extra dollars a month (just to spend that couple hundred on a more expensive daycare..not really getting ahead) waiting for Gabe to have another opportunity. This does not mean that we will not be looking into a prospect of moving again in the future..but now this gives us the opportunity to clean up, clean out and get prepared so that the idea of a move in the future won't be as stressful. The great thing about it (and even though they never contacted my boss for a reference) I was told that I needed to let my boss know, because they would be contacting her. Being the kind, caring boss that she is she was actually rooting for me because she is a grandmother and knows how nice it would be if family could all be so close.
So...these weights are all off of my shoulders 1) My boss knows where my heart is and it will be an easy conversation in the future, when the time comes to move on. 2) I have visited a daycare in Asheville, highly recommended by several people and I was very pleased. 3) We don't have to try to rent our house out right now and pack and move...who enjoys all of that anyway!? ;)
18 months isn't that long right? That's how long we have until we can sell our house without having to pay back the government $8000... And no matter how long it takes to sell, rent, whatever we decide to do...we always have a place to stay in Asheville..that's what's great about home :)

So, thank you everyone for the prayers, I know they worked because they should have all been prayers for what was meant to be and clearly this is where God wants us right now...maybe someday we'll figure out the reasons...

Longest week EVVVERRR

It's Wednesday..Really? Yesterday it felt like it should have been Thursday and when Monday was over I could have sworn we were a LOT closer to the end of the week...

I'm not sure why this week is seeming to drag although I have an inclination of why...for those of you that are reading this (all 2 of you) you already know I am in a waiting game right now.

Whatever is meant to be will be..
( I continue to repeat this in my head to make myself believe it!)

Gabe keeps telling me not to get my hopes up, he's so afraid I'll be disappointed if things don't lead in the direction of home. But really, I think I'll be ok. I love my house, I love my neighbors, I love the daycare that Garrett attends...what i hate is being so far from family and friends and the fact that i know Gabe is unhappy with his job. This is an opportunity for our whole family...well, the beginnings of an opportunity for our whole family...if it all works out, we'll be searching for "opportunities" for Gabe! Anyway, keep praying...that's the only thing that can be done at this point..but I don't ask for prayer for what I want, but rather for what will be, what is God's will...

On a side note...Happy Birthday Christie! I hope you're having a great lunch at Tupelo right now and I hope you have a great day!